On the 29th I wrote a blog about starting over with my after school routine. I wrote about wanting to exercise, write, and spend more time with Garrett. I wrote about trying to shake myself out of this awful rut I seem to have fallen into.
Well, today is Wednesday. I have done three workouts. This is an improvement.
I do not feel better overall though. I am just as exhausted and drained as before. I am not napping though. I have been able to avoid passing out by keeping myself busy right up until bed time. My schedule looks like this:
School 6:30-3
Writing 3-4
Workout 4-5
Shower 5-6
Dinner 6-7
Time reading and/or with Garrett 7-10
Then I fall asleep immediately and very soundly. I feel like not napping all day long is also an improvement. It is a step in the right direction in terms of having a life outside of my job.
I have only cried once since Sunday. And I am not sure if those tears count because I hit my hand on the coffee table and sobbed. Only some of the sobbing was because of physical pain. This is better than it has been.
I am still waking up nauseous every morning. This morning I gagged and thought I was going to puke. I didn't. This is about the same as it has been.
This is my second blog post for the week. This is an improvement. I haven't done any reading this week. This has stayed the same.
My conclusion is that I haven't been doing this long enough to know for sure if it is helping me feel better. I need to continue and see how I am feeling at the end of the week.
I have received many, many messages of love and support from friends, family, and coworkers. These messages are very much appreciated. I love you all very much.
