I have a husband who needs me to be present. I have friends who live out of state who I text every night. I have this dream of being a paid writer which I am trying to indulge. And so... I make myself sit on the couch with Garrett and stay awake as long as I can. More often than not I fall asleep at least once some time around 7 or 8.
At 10 pm I drag myself to bed and fall asleep immediately.
Every one tells me I should work out because I will have more energy if I do. I wonder at their ability to stay standing after they come home.
People say that I should eat better. Some days eating at all seems like a chore. Some nights I ask Garrett if I can skip dinner and go to bed. He is the reason I eat at all.
In the morning I struggle to get out of bed. At least two alarms go off before I open my eyes. And then I lay in bed for at least 15 minutes willing my limbs to move. I often skip breakfast so that I can get a little more sleep. Luckily, I take my vitamin D in the morning and it usually kicks in it right as students are arriving.
I sleep well. I always get at least 7-8 hours of sleep which should be plenty. I don't wake up repeatedly at night.
At least one night every week I almost fall asleep standing up, cooking dinner. This is usually followed by an extreme bout of crankiness where I want to punch (I don't, but I want to) every one and every thing that stands in the way of me and my bed. This week this level of exhaustion arrived on Tuesday.
One time I fell asleep in the car after pulling into the driveway.
I have been thinking about this exhaustion a lot lately. Is this what other teacher experience on a day-to-day basis? Is this what other professionals experience? If it isn't what others feel, then why do I feel like this? And if it is how all other adults feel, how do you overcome the exhaustion so you can work out, take night classes, have second jobs, raise a family or etc?
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